Day One

I have the freedom to change my life. 

With all the chaos that was most peoples lives last year (2020) a lot of negativity crept into my everyday life. I got lazy, I got uninspired, I got unmotivated. My exact words to my husband was I feel like the last 8 months were a waste of space. 

To be fair, there were a lot of positives. 

My family has grown closer together. We have spent every night having family dinners and reflecting on the day. We make a point of discussing one or more favourite parts of the day. 

We celebrated. Birthdays, anniversaries, achievements. We did so in different and unique ways but we still acknowledged the milestones. 

We all stayed healthy. That to me was probably the most positive outcome of the entire year. So thankful that all five of us managed this. 

Connections with our friends and family changed but still were there. Virtual coffee dates and wine nights, virtual game nights, socially distanced backyard events. All of this helped us stay in touch. 

Through all the positives, I still felt that I let myself down. I struggled for three years to get fit and lose weight and most of that is out the window. 

Not that I have ever been the tidiest of housekeepers, but the boxes of "stuff" that needs to be dealt with is just piling up. 

I am often feeling like I am disappointing my family when we have days that only consist of video games and movies. 

Truth is, only I can change this. 

Only I can model for my children what healthy living is. To move more, to take pride in our environment, to make our house more a home again. That is the purpose of this, to keep myself accountable for making those changes. 

I am the one in charge of my change. 

I am the one with the freedom to change.