Days Fourteen through Eighteen

 

OK, so I fell off the bandwagon BIG TIME with the blogging this past week.  Even my Weekly Update is a day late.

Not much to say about that except for I am going to keep trying.  Change takes time, sometimes I will falter but the important thing is to keep trying to move forward.

Last week I managed the following on my list:

30 minute walk outside - 4 out of 7 days I managed to get this done

No alcohol Sunday - Thursday - This one I nailed yet again (probably the easiest for me)

Eat breakfast every day - Had a lot of "brunch" instead of breakfast and lunch.  Will need to focus more on this

Blog everyday - Definitely failed on this one

Finish a weekly to-do list for around the house - I managed to get about half of my list completed.  There are a couple of items that will be ongoing but I feel better about this one this week.

This week I am adding one more item:

Do a 30 minute workout 5 times a week - now that all kids are back in school, I can get back to my online workouts

I will keep my eyes on the prize, knowing that these changes will make be feel less stressed, more relaxed and help me get on a healthier track.

I am the one in charge of my change. 

I am the one with the freedom to change.

Day Thirteen

I finally feel like I am starting to make some changes happen. 

I actually spent some dedicated time on my to-do list! Tasks got accomplished and crossed off my list. I still might not get everything completed by Sunday, but at least I will have done more than I did last week.

Making progress, even if it is small has given me some inspiration and motivation. Getting ideas on how to better organize and utilize space in the kitchen.

Looking forward to keeping the momentum and crossing more off tomorrow.  The change will happen!

I am the one in charge of my change. 

I am the one with the freedom to change.

Day Twelve

Priorities!

Sometimes they need to change. The list of small changes I am working on needs to have priorities.

In order for me to work on the external changes, like my to-do list, i need to prioritize some of the changes I am doing for myself. As selfish as this sounds, I need to make myself the priority.

I am struggling. I think I need to recharge daily in order to have the motivation and desire to move forward.

I am going to set a Monday-Friday schedule for myself starting next week so I can refocus. The first hour to hour and a half I have without the kids will be mine.

I am the one in charge of my change. 

I am the one with the freedom to change.

Day Eleven

Today was a really off day.

Woke up this morning feeling totally defeated. A long, restless night full of demoralizing dreams did nothing to help with my motivation to work on my to do list.

I want to make these changes. I want to control these changes. I want to make my life better on my own terms.

The changes I am striving for wil make me a better wife, mother, friend but most importantly make me feel like a better person.

Why do I feel like subconsciously I am sabatoging myself? Now all my fears, my insecurities, my failures are coming to the surface.

All I can do is keep trying. Every day is a new day, a new chance for change.

I am the one in charge of my change. 

I am the one with the freedom to change.

Day Nine & Ten

 

So my intent was to update weekly with how my change are going and if I am adding anything new or altering my plan.  Mondays are the start of the week, so it seems fitting that the update should be then.

Updates from last week:

30 minute walk outside - weekdays were good, weekend was a fail.  Need to be more dedicated to get this done

No alcohol Sunday - Thursday - I totally rocked this one.  This will continue!

Eat breakfast every day - Managed to do this one as well.  Sunday was brunch which counts right??

Blog everyday - 6 out of 7, not too bad for the first week

Finish a weekly to-do list for around the house - BIG FAIL.  No excuses.  I am having motivation issues and the kids were virtual learning last week which made dedicating time to this difficult.  Will try again this week.

Not adding anything new today.  Need to master the few items I am already trying to change before I attempt more.

This is still a start, and in my opinion better than nothing.  I can do this, I can make these changes.

I am the one in charge of my change. 

I am the one with the freedom to change.

Day Eight

Lacking in motivation today.

The to-do list is calling my name and I have no get up and go to even start on it, let alone finish it.

This is the change that I need to make the most, and is the hardest for me. There are always obstacles that get in my way.  Some are my own creation, but others are not in my control.  That's what happens in a household of 5.

The husband had to finish the renovations on our eldest child's room.  Something that was started 3 weeks ago.  It took most of the afternoon.

The younger two did not want to get along today.  It meant more disruptions for me to mediate them.  

The few moments that I did have, once I started, I was my own worst enemy and got easily distracted by less important tasks. Unfortunately, that happens a lot.

By the time I was able to get some time to myself and actually try focusing on the to-do list, it was time to start dinner.

I still want to change my house keeping habits. I am not giving up, I will work through the list I made as much as I can tomorrow and then make a new one for the following week.  Hopefully I can choose to manage the distractions better and get things done.

I am the one in charge of my change.

I am the one with the freedom to change.

Day Seven

Do we take a chance on change?

Does change give us a chance?

Or really is it both?

Taking a chance on change can open doors to so many more experiences, friendships, passions. It can make dreams come true, it can help achieve goals.  Taking the step to make change can alter your life forever.

Changing gives us the chance to have more opportunities in all aspects of life.  It can give us more contacts for career choices, it can make us healthier and have a more positive outlook.  It can expand friendships and families.

We are the only ones that can choose which changes to make, which chances to take.  Both to me are well worth the risk.

I am the one in charge of my change.

I am the one with the freedom to change.